Sorry...

For not being a good blogger :( After we came home from our cruise it seems that everything went south with me but not the pregnancy. It has been soooo bad that I actually bought my Mom a plane ticket so she could nurse me back to health. Love my Mami!!!

For now I just survive with rice/potatoes and plain chicken...Jell-O on the side and your occasional sweet treat :)

I'll post picture later of the cruise...

Ahhhh Sooooo Ready

I'm sooo ready to jump on the cruise and start our vacation which will be our first and last one alone (since our honeymoon) cuz the twins will be with us at every vacation from now on.

I go back to the RE on Monday for our 7w6d or 8w0d appt...haven't figured out where I fall yet. Hopefully we will be released to the OB and we can close a chapter that has been with us for the last 2 years. I'm grateful for everything that has happened to us in the last 2 years but at the same time I'm ready to put it behind me...I want to be "normal". Infertility changes you and it affects everything that you do. It also affects the ones that love you the most because they can't understand what you are going through unless they went through it. I'm truly blessed with my support system and I know that they will continue to support us as we venture into this new chapter with twins.

I'm happy to say that morning sickness hasn't kicked me in the butt...I might wake up feeling blah but it goes away as soon as I put some food into me. I only had one day that I was miserable but it went away. I must admit that I hate brushing my teeth but it's because I don't want to upchuck. I do it quickly and I make sure that I have the entire bathroom to myself.  I'm hoping that I get to be one of the lucky ones that doesn't have to go through the battles with morning sickness.

Keep the prayers coming since this will be A BUMPY ROAD... :)

Ultrasound #1

We finally went in for our ultrasound this morning and were super anxious. After waiting for more than 30 minutes past our appointment time we were sent to the exam room where we waited another 15 minutes. Dr Burger came in and said that they got backed up and that everyone had to wait a little longer. As I started laying down I was thinking that after 2 long years I was finally going to see the beginnings of my family.

I kept my eye on the monitor and to my amazment I saw 2 sacs. The first sac had a visible heartbeat that we were able to measure at 115bpm but we couldn't hear. The second sac looked early and Dr Burger told us that it could develop or not and that the only way we would know would be in the next ultrasound. She did some checking on my ovaries and noticed that I had 2 cysts but she wasn't worried. She decided to check the second sac and was able to see a visible heartbeat. She moved the wand around and we were able to hear the heartbeat at 112bpm.

So right now I'm still in a state of shock. I knew going into the IUI that there was a chance of 2 maybe 3 good follicles that could release eggs. I never in my wildest dreams imagined that the word TWINS would be coming out of my mouth.

My FAITH kept my HOPE alive and that will continue to be the center of our families...OUR FAITH!!!

Thank You GOD for listening to our prayers and the prayers of everyone that surrounds us...

Beta #2

My nurse called today to let me know that my numbers were good...HCG @ 443 and Progesterone @ 59.6 Dr Burger wants me to repeat the test next week and she scheduled my 1st U/S for 2/23 @ 9:15am. Slowly it has started to sink in that this is really happening to US!!!

In-laws are in town for the weekend so it will be a fun time for everyone...Also I'm super excited b/c my MOM booked her flight to TX this morning. She will get here before we leave for our Caribbean Cruise :)

Our Prayers have been answered but we must continue to PRAY for this little MIRACLE...

In God's Time

Everyone kept telling me that in God's Time I would get pregnant...well I guess God's Time arrived early in the year because WE'RE PREGNANT!!! I had the 2nd IUI done on January 24th & 25th and my Beta was set to be done on Tuesday 2/8/11. I remember telling Carlos that I wanted to test that Monday prior to the Beta in order to prepare myself for the results since I had to go in to work on Tuesday. I waited patiently for him to come home from work in order for the both of us to be present. I'm not too good POAS so I did it in a cup and let Carlos do all the honors. While we were waiting for the results to show up I remember telling him that I was frustrated at failing, that if this time it didn't work I would take a break and enjoy the upcoming planning for our cruise. Carlos started looking at the stick and then at the box with a weird look. I grabbed the stick from his hand and saw a faint line in the test area...OMG it's +. I told him that I needed a digital to confirm...so off he went to get the test. He came back within 10 minutes and I gave him another cup with what ever I had left. We continued talking about how this might be our time, how crazy things have been, how he needed to clean the guest bedroom out to make room...then he took the test and his face said it all...PREGNANT!!! We both started jumping for joy and quickly called our parents who were in shock with the news that they started crying tears of JOY.

So off I went Tuesday to get my blood drawn at 8am and prayed to God that this was real and that it was not a fluke. The day dragged on like there was no tomorrow and I was getting anxious that they had no called back. But at 3:12pm I got the news that I had been waiting for...Beta #1 results came back + : HCG at 242 and Progesterone at 69...

We're over the moon and still on cloud 9. Words cannot express what we and the rest of our families are feeling right now. I go back in for a 2nd Beta tomorrow...

Thank You GOD for hearing our prayers!!!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

When I got married I pictured myself being a MOM by my 28th birthday...and here we are and I'm not a mommy yet. I'm okay with the events that have happened in my life b/c these have given me the strength to continue fighting. I embrace a new year of life and I look forward to the many blessings that I KNOW will come my way.

Hopefully I'll be able to go to dinner with Carlos tonight...but if it doesn't happen then I kow I can celebrate on the weekend with him.

What I've learned...

During these past couple of days I've learned that everything has a purpose and a time. What I can not see God has seen for me and in HIS time things will be. I keep reminding myself that everytime I see or hear about a pregnancy...I try to not let it affect me but lets be realistic...it hurts and you know that it also hurts the ones that are around you.

I've been responding good to this cycle so lets see what happens. I have a follow-up on Sunday and that will determine if we are good to go for IUI #2.

My birthday is in 10 days so maybe God might have a late birthday present for me...please :)

IUI #1 was a NEGATIVE

As the title clearly states...IUI #1 came back negative :(

I had been cramping like crazy ever since the IUI was done in December so I figured that it was probably my uterus letting me know that someone was getting cozy in there...NOT. I had refused to buy HPT because I didn't want to be disappointed so I waited patiently until Sunday night. We had just gotten back from spending some time with our friends when I decided to go potty. I'd been looking at the paper for the last couple of days trying to make sure that nothing "pink" was around but this time around there was some light "pink". I freaked out and started crying my eyes out...I knew then that I was not preggo. Carlos saw me and consoled me while trying to let me know that maybe it was something else. He researched and told me that it could be implantation bleeding since it was very small. I agreed with him and went to bed.

When I woke up Monday morning and went to the bathroom I was dreading looking at the paper...it was RED and alot :(   I quickly called my mom to let her know and I started crying again. I got ready and went to the lab to have the Beta done just in case I was preggo. I returned home and laid in bed all day waiting for the results. My nurse called around 2pm to let me know what I already knew...you're NOT PREGNANT!!! Since AF had arrived she scheduled me to see Dr Burger the following day.

And here we are...CD 2 of IUI#2. Dr Burger was sad that we had not achieved a pregnancy but she was happy that I was able to respond to the medication and produce 1 egg. She did the baseline u/s and told me that we were good to go for another IUI. She decided to increase my medication for the next three days in hope of me responding a little better. I have a follow-up on Saturday so I have to be up at the crack of dawn to get my blood work done before my appt.

I've learned a lot about myself and about my hubby these past few weeks...I love him soooo much and I don't know what I would do without him by my side through these difficult times.

God knows our hearts desire and in HIS time it will come true...Here's to HOPE that one day it will happen :)

Happy 3 Kings Day...

Hope everyone had a Happy New Year...We had a good time at the In-laws and I also enjoyed the fact that I was on vacation for a good 11 days!!!

It's been a while since I've updated the blog but mainly I've been trying to not focus on the fact that this Monday we will find out if the IUI worked or not. I'm currently on 10 post IUI and I really would like to take a preggo test but I refuse to let myself and Carlos down. I've had some cramping and my tatas were sore for a good week. I'd like to think that it's our Christmas Miracle finding a comfy spot within my uterus :)

I hope and pray that the 1st one is "The One" but I can only let God do the deed...God knows what our hearts desire and if this is it then AMEN and if it's not then it's not our time to be parents JUST YET...

Here's to MY FAITH that keeps MY HOPE alive...