When I got married I pictured myself being a MOM by my 28th birthday...and here we are and I'm not a mommy yet. I'm okay with the events that have happened in my life b/c these have given me the strength to continue fighting. I embrace a new year of life and I look forward to the many blessings that I KNOW will come my way.
Hopefully I'll be able to go to dinner with Carlos tonight...but if it doesn't happen then I kow I can celebrate on the weekend with him.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Friday, January 21, 2011
What I've learned...
During these past couple of days I've learned that everything has a purpose and a time. What I can not see God has seen for me and in HIS time things will be. I keep reminding myself that everytime I see or hear about a pregnancy...I try to not let it affect me but lets be realistic...it hurts and you know that it also hurts the ones that are around you.
I've been responding good to this cycle so lets see what happens. I have a follow-up on Sunday and that will determine if we are good to go for IUI #2.
My birthday is in 10 days so maybe God might have a late birthday present for me...please :)
I've been responding good to this cycle so lets see what happens. I have a follow-up on Sunday and that will determine if we are good to go for IUI #2.
My birthday is in 10 days so maybe God might have a late birthday present for me...please :)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
IUI #1 was a NEGATIVE
As the title clearly states...IUI #1 came back negative :(
I had been cramping like crazy ever since the IUI was done in December so I figured that it was probably my uterus letting me know that someone was getting cozy in there...NOT. I had refused to buy HPT because I didn't want to be disappointed so I waited patiently until Sunday night. We had just gotten back from spending some time with our friends when I decided to go potty. I'd been looking at the paper for the last couple of days trying to make sure that nothing "pink" was around but this time around there was some light "pink". I freaked out and started crying my eyes out...I knew then that I was not preggo. Carlos saw me and consoled me while trying to let me know that maybe it was something else. He researched and told me that it could be implantation bleeding since it was very small. I agreed with him and went to bed.
When I woke up Monday morning and went to the bathroom I was dreading looking at the paper...it was RED and alot :( I quickly called my mom to let her know and I started crying again. I got ready and went to the lab to have the Beta done just in case I was preggo. I returned home and laid in bed all day waiting for the results. My nurse called around 2pm to let me know what I already knew...you're NOT PREGNANT!!! Since AF had arrived she scheduled me to see Dr Burger the following day.
And here we are...CD 2 of IUI#2. Dr Burger was sad that we had not achieved a pregnancy but she was happy that I was able to respond to the medication and produce 1 egg. She did the baseline u/s and told me that we were good to go for another IUI. She decided to increase my medication for the next three days in hope of me responding a little better. I have a follow-up on Saturday so I have to be up at the crack of dawn to get my blood work done before my appt.
I've learned a lot about myself and about my hubby these past few weeks...I love him soooo much and I don't know what I would do without him by my side through these difficult times.
God knows our hearts desire and in HIS time it will come true...Here's to HOPE that one day it will happen :)
I had been cramping like crazy ever since the IUI was done in December so I figured that it was probably my uterus letting me know that someone was getting cozy in there...NOT. I had refused to buy HPT because I didn't want to be disappointed so I waited patiently until Sunday night. We had just gotten back from spending some time with our friends when I decided to go potty. I'd been looking at the paper for the last couple of days trying to make sure that nothing "pink" was around but this time around there was some light "pink". I freaked out and started crying my eyes out...I knew then that I was not preggo. Carlos saw me and consoled me while trying to let me know that maybe it was something else. He researched and told me that it could be implantation bleeding since it was very small. I agreed with him and went to bed.
When I woke up Monday morning and went to the bathroom I was dreading looking at the paper...it was RED and alot :( I quickly called my mom to let her know and I started crying again. I got ready and went to the lab to have the Beta done just in case I was preggo. I returned home and laid in bed all day waiting for the results. My nurse called around 2pm to let me know what I already knew...you're NOT PREGNANT!!! Since AF had arrived she scheduled me to see Dr Burger the following day.
And here we are...CD 2 of IUI#2. Dr Burger was sad that we had not achieved a pregnancy but she was happy that I was able to respond to the medication and produce 1 egg. She did the baseline u/s and told me that we were good to go for another IUI. She decided to increase my medication for the next three days in hope of me responding a little better. I have a follow-up on Saturday so I have to be up at the crack of dawn to get my blood work done before my appt.
I've learned a lot about myself and about my hubby these past few weeks...I love him soooo much and I don't know what I would do without him by my side through these difficult times.
God knows our hearts desire and in HIS time it will come true...Here's to HOPE that one day it will happen :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Happy 3 Kings Day...
Hope everyone had a Happy New Year...We had a good time at the In-laws and I also enjoyed the fact that I was on vacation for a good 11 days!!!
It's been a while since I've updated the blog but mainly I've been trying to not focus on the fact that this Monday we will find out if the IUI worked or not. I'm currently on 10 post IUI and I really would like to take a preggo test but I refuse to let myself and Carlos down. I've had some cramping and my tatas were sore for a good week. I'd like to think that it's our Christmas Miracle finding a comfy spot within my uterus :)
I hope and pray that the 1st one is "The One" but I can only let God do the deed...God knows what our hearts desire and if this is it then AMEN and if it's not then it's not our time to be parents JUST YET...
Here's to MY FAITH that keeps MY HOPE alive...
It's been a while since I've updated the blog but mainly I've been trying to not focus on the fact that this Monday we will find out if the IUI worked or not. I'm currently on 10 post IUI and I really would like to take a preggo test but I refuse to let myself and Carlos down. I've had some cramping and my tatas were sore for a good week. I'd like to think that it's our Christmas Miracle finding a comfy spot within my uterus :)
I hope and pray that the 1st one is "The One" but I can only let God do the deed...God knows what our hearts desire and if this is it then AMEN and if it's not then it's not our time to be parents JUST YET...
Here's to MY FAITH that keeps MY HOPE alive...