It's CHRISTMAS at the Lopez De Victoria-Gabriel Household...

Not much has happened since my last post. Carlos and I have been spending more time together and seem to be on the same page when it comes to what we are going to do when I go in for my follow-up appt in December. I have such high HOPES that maybe the cyst has fully gone down and that I can resume my TTC journey but I also know that it may not happen just now. I've been monitoring daily since AF went away due to the fact that somehow I O'd all by myself last month. I just want to make sure that if I do O, we try the natural way...plus I haven't seen a positive OPK since November of last year :( 

And Christmas has officially begun...eventhough we couldn't wait 'til after Thanksgiving to put the tree up. Here's a picture with the LDV letters that Carlos just put up in the office...

We'll be having Thanksgiving dinner at my SIL house with all of the family. My in-laws arrive tomorrow and my MIL already told me to prepare since she is ready to do the BLACK FRIDAY madness. Carlos and I actually look foward to BLACK FRIDAY eventhough we don't shop a lot we just like to go out there and enjoy the atmosphere.

This will mark the first year that the family won't be around Abu...can't believe that its been 7 months since she left this Earth and joined God. I miss speaking to her and joking around since she always knew that her little girl would be calling everyday at anytime. She was a strong lady and I HOPE that one day I can show my kids how their great-grandmother kept her FAITH in God until her last days.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving and don't spend too much...

Hello November...

These past few weeks have been crazy...I just got back from Puerto Rico where I took my exam to become a professional engineer. All the studying has left my brain in a chill state. Results will be in 6-8 weeks...so I'm praying that I passed it.

On the other side of things...I had a follow up appointment today and that didn't go as I had hoped for. The cyst is still present but now it measures 35mm instead of 50mm. She did notice that my lining was thick (18mm) so she wants to induce my cycle with Provera...again. Doctor gave me a follow up appointment for December 2 and I'm actually at ease because Dr Burger will be back and I miss talking to her about our situation. I've been trying to hide my feeelings at work but some peers have caught on that something isn't right with me. I'm not the happy go lucky girl that they're used to seeing. I have a great support system at home but sometimes that is not enough and all I want to do is cry. I'm trying to keep my head up but I guess that as time goes on it's actually taking its toll on me.

I'm happy that it's the HOLIDAY SEASON and I'm looking forward to all the Christmas shopping :) My oldest nephew turns 5 next week and he got a preview of gifts. At the rate we are going Xavier will be just like his uncle...SHOES will be his fetish. The in-laws will be in town for the weekend so hopefully we'll get some time to spend with family.

In the mean time...FAITH is what keeps my HOPE alive!!!